The Silhouette...

Dil ki banjar zameen thi,
Yaadon ka gulistan liye baitha tha…
Tum aaoge iski umeed tho nahi thi magar,
Ek jhalak ki aas liye baitha tha…

Guzra jo manzar tha pyaar ka,
Kisi toofan ki tarah chala gaya…
Ojhal kiya nazron se usse,
Jo dil ko sabse pyaara tha…

Jannat ko bhi thukra du rabba,
Tu pathjad mein jo usko basa de agar…
Muskura kar jahan chod du,
Janaze ko woh dekhne aaye agar…

Rishtey toh sabhi paraye hue,
Ishq mein itna madhosh jo raha…
Saaye ne bhi saath na diya,
Is mein uska bhi toh koi dosh na tha…

Aaj phir dhadkano ko mehsoos hua,
Teri aahat mere abroo ko choo gayi…
Tu tassavur hai mere khayalon ki,
Lo aaj phir mujhe tanha chod gayi…

Khamosh si teri palkon par,
Kuch jazbaat ubhar kar reh gayi...
Khata teri bhi nahi shayad,
Shama jalne se pehle hi jo dhal gayi...



My sincere apologies to all my readers who dont understand "Hindi", but i do promise to come up with something else soon. Recent times have been a bit hectic, so didnt get to concentrate on my blog. And i do remember of my promise to a couple of my readers to come up with a "Happy Happy" post, am trying, will surely write something before Valentines...
:)

The Silhouette...

The days tormenting,
and nights never ending,
buried in these dungeons,
are my feelings, undying...

crying in silence,
still holding to your essence...
i feel your presence,
through this distance, insane...

cursed in love,
endowed by fate...
an eternity of suffering,
a destiny of pain...

shadows still haunting,
paths, i fear to tread...
wounds, still bleeding,
the past, never fades...

Distance too far,
Your voice trails away…
Leaving me no choice,
Just hoping you’ll stay..

Promises unkept,
All along the way,
Resurrect me,
To die another day…


Wrote it back in March '09, these lines were supposed to be completed, but then the one who wished to complete it aint around...i guess some things are just meant to be so...

Sound of the silence,
Silence through time,
Waiting for a whisper,
Whisper of your voice...

Waiting for a lifetime,
Lifetime spent for a moment,
Walking in the dark,
Darkness hiding your absence...

Weeping between smiles,
The smile binding my pain,
Longing to close the distance,
Distance turning me insane...

Longing for your touch,
Touch i would never feel again,
Dying with the winter,
Only this winter would come again...


This one, i wrote it more than a year ago, but never posted it anywhere...today, reading it again, i can only feel the irony of life...

I smell your reeking fragrance,
In the thin air, cold and dry…
You glide along the winter night,
Your scepter, held bold and high…

Waiting, with patience,
Absorbing, with eyes serene…

You blessed him,
The neighborhood boy…
Just like you took her,
Away from prying eyes…

You, the dark side of god,
I pray, for your darker rewards…..



In my last post i spoke of giving up writing, but i find it hard to part ways from it. For the sole reason that you seem so close with the pen in my hand. "Words" it were, that brought us together, i guess, words it would be that would hold us forever...

Always,

Your Silhouette...

a life chosen, a lifetime gone....
that life ended, my lifelines' gone....
a crossroad, i met you,
today, a dead end, u left me....

where do i go from here,
what is left to live??
without you my love,
all my blinds are drawn...

come back to me baby,
or take me with you...
walking into the emptiness,
where no ray of light crawls...




P.s.- i shouldnt be using this "p.s." it belongs to someone else, that someone who changed me, made me....and now finally, broke me....

you brought me here, now without you, i feel lonely...friends, this is my last post here, i wouldnt be writing anymore,coz the person who was the reason i wrote and the one for whom all my posts were dedicated, has left on a long journey away from all....

i would still read all your lovely posts friends and surely would comment on them...

pls do say a prayer for her...

Regards,
Her Silhouette...

Every song,
tells a story,
Why do,
a part of me,
all of them carry...

Carrying the guilt,
Of my cowardice...
Getting heavier
By the burden
Of your promises...

Life in this misery,
Feeding on your memories...
Embraced by death,
Living in your memories...



i know am dwelling in the past...and all of my recent posts have been somehow or the other related to those memories...but, its something am gonna carry for a long time i guess, i just cant let go...at least till am in this city...