The Silhouette...

 

i walked down the path,
knowing i would end up alone
but love is such,
it's the little moments you own...

i saw across the table,
and i knew you were trouble
i would fall for you,
only you would never know...

the smiles shared,
and the glances i stole...
wondered if you noticed,
love had taken its hold...

you weren't ignorant,
i was just a friend...
or were you reluctant
afraid, where it would end...

and the days,
made up the years..
neither confessed,
what had never started,
could not ever end.... 

- Eon Heath

p.s. - Back after a long time. Hope to keep up.

img courtesy - Here

The ink has dried,
The words are gone,
Have your memories
Disappeared?

Like the autumn leaves
carried by the wind,
why does everything seem,
so incomplete…

Praying for sun,
when it comes pouring down,
why has this rain,
become so tormenting…

Tears of pain
has dried in my eyes,
yet I smile,
knowing nothing will change…

As the time flies
out of my life,
I walk, leaving behind
What was once mine…


-Eon Heath



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Expectations, Realizations. Rejection.

What was i hoping,
What was i planning,
why couldnt i see it coming?
Its agonizing,
Tormenting...

Expectations, Realizations. Rejection.

The anger rising,
its tantalizing,
Forcing me into breaking
am choking
dying inside...

Expectations, Realizations. Rejection.

am still living...

-Eon Heath

p.s. nothing. am fine. its just a writng.



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Why am I so confused
with what I think
I refuse to believe
In those sweet nothings…
I walk looking for
Empty streets…
Often ending up
At the place we meet…

Am still to forget
The ways of your smile
And I cant give up
Treating myself unkind…

The look of your eyes
Tell me you are still mine
And its just not wise
To let someone reside…

This transition of my life
Is something
I cant stand this time…
Wake me up
Or let me sleep
I wanna get better
than just memories……
I say, should I give up
Or should I fight
Keep on dreaming
Of you each night…


- Eon Heath

i cant really say what provoked me to write this...it had something to do with a conversation with a fellow blogger and a little bit of the draught going on..
;-)
jokes apart, there are moments that question the foundation of your belief, your faith...tried to capture on such moment for me...



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The chain of thoughts,
Often digs up the past…
Reminds me of the days,
Of the deeds and words
That were left halfway…

The nights are filled,
With my shattered dreams…
Revelling in my eyes,
Is the numbness of this pain
Memoirs of the crimson stream…

I shouldn’t have tried
Slaying these monsters
Of the bay…
In their vicious smile,
Is where my happiness lay…


-Eon Heath


p.s.- No nothings for why this post is here...it is long due...an acceptence to myself.
:)


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The sun shines high,
The alleys stay deserted...
The night sets in,
Life brews...

They come in herds, men.
To buy what they lack,
A few, to find what they lost.

The alleys sell love,
A filth in light,
Treasured till dawn...

She stands by the window,
Looking for love,
Or selling hers?

Most savage her,
A few savour,
In the end, none care...

She takes them all,
A few lovers,
The rest lechers...

She is tainted,
For she takes
The sorrows of the day...

And yet in the nights,
The very mouths,
Seek her arms solace...

The day rises,
She retreats...
The night engulfs,
By the window, she is...




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I wish the pain would subside
or i could just let it out...
I wanna figure a way
To calm my soul
Or else i could
Just watch it wither away...

These wounds may heal,
But why don’t
the scars fade...
Staying and reminding
Of the moments
“I forgot”, i say...

I bury my pride
And let that tear ride
Take me home
Take me, where i belong...
Blood, oozes out,
Then why i couldn’t feel the blade?

- Eon Heath



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Ok friends, about this post, well i tried my hand at writing a song this time...and the reason behind it is, there is this one song Someday By John Legend from August Rush which i just happen to love...and i listen to it n no of times in a day. So the last time when i was listening to it, i had these words forming in me...


The dreams we saw,
N promises made,
Were for us,
To live together...

Now am left alone,
I don’t know how it happened,
Just moments before,
You, were here...
The words were true,
Now am left alone...

But i still remember
The sweet scent of your touch
And i can never forget
The taste of your lips, on mine...

So i choose to walk alone...
Be alone and finish wats left undone...
To keep our worlds together,
Be together..
With you forever....



When you read these lines, i just want you all to keep that tune playing in your mind....thanks...

dedicated, as always,
to you love....

we humans salviate,
never really care
whats right or wrong...

ignorant in our hunger,
we forget
what goes away, comes along...

life comes crawling down,
the wounds never heal
n the numb never gone...

it seeps through our soul,
innocent hearts, if not god
death have mercy upon...


p.s. - what really inspired me to write this one is a video by "Dream Theatre"

the music is so perfect...it so beautifully describes pain suffering, the silence that follows after the destrcution...

If music were words,
this is the best speech i have heard...

My life is blank,
And so are my verses,
You were the words,
That coloured my canvas…

They ask me to sing,
Few many a lines of praises,
I filled them with you,
The only song in my senses…

I painted my feelings,
And they taunt me to write,
I pen down my tears,
Yet another day, I fight…

Walking towards the darkness,
That haunts my way,
Searching for the alleys,
Where you, my precious lay…



For you,
your silhouette...

p.s.- friends, i remember i promised to post a happy song before valentine, but the past few days weren't one of the best...

Dil ki banjar zameen thi,
Yaadon ka gulistan liye baitha tha…
Tum aaoge iski umeed tho nahi thi magar,
Ek jhalak ki aas liye baitha tha…

Guzra jo manzar tha pyaar ka,
Kisi toofan ki tarah chala gaya…
Ojhal kiya nazron se usse,
Jo dil ko sabse pyaara tha…

Jannat ko bhi thukra du rabba,
Tu pathjad mein jo usko basa de agar…
Muskura kar jahan chod du,
Janaze ko woh dekhne aaye agar…

Rishtey toh sabhi paraye hue,
Ishq mein itna madhosh jo raha…
Saaye ne bhi saath na diya,
Is mein uska bhi toh koi dosh na tha…

Aaj phir dhadkano ko mehsoos hua,
Teri aahat mere abroo ko choo gayi…
Tu tassavur hai mere khayalon ki,
Lo aaj phir mujhe tanha chod gayi…

Khamosh si teri palkon par,
Kuch jazbaat ubhar kar reh gayi...
Khata teri bhi nahi shayad,
Shama jalne se pehle hi jo dhal gayi...



My sincere apologies to all my readers who dont understand "Hindi", but i do promise to come up with something else soon. Recent times have been a bit hectic, so didnt get to concentrate on my blog. And i do remember of my promise to a couple of my readers to come up with a "Happy Happy" post, am trying, will surely write something before Valentines...
:)

The Silhouette...

The days tormenting,
and nights never ending,
buried in these dungeons,
are my feelings, undying...

crying in silence,
still holding to your essence...
i feel your presence,
through this distance, insane...

cursed in love,
endowed by fate...
an eternity of suffering,
a destiny of pain...

shadows still haunting,
paths, i fear to tread...
wounds, still bleeding,
the past, never fades...

Distance too far,
Your voice trails away…
Leaving me no choice,
Just hoping you’ll stay..

Promises unkept,
All along the way,
Resurrect me,
To die another day…


Wrote it back in March '09, these lines were supposed to be completed, but then the one who wished to complete it aint around...i guess some things are just meant to be so...

Sound of the silence,
Silence through time,
Waiting for a whisper,
Whisper of your voice...

Waiting for a lifetime,
Lifetime spent for a moment,
Walking in the dark,
Darkness hiding your absence...

Weeping between smiles,
The smile binding my pain,
Longing to close the distance,
Distance turning me insane...

Longing for your touch,
Touch i would never feel again,
Dying with the winter,
Only this winter would come again...


This one, i wrote it more than a year ago, but never posted it anywhere...today, reading it again, i can only feel the irony of life...

I smell your reeking fragrance,
In the thin air, cold and dry…
You glide along the winter night,
Your scepter, held bold and high…

Waiting, with patience,
Absorbing, with eyes serene…

You blessed him,
The neighborhood boy…
Just like you took her,
Away from prying eyes…

You, the dark side of god,
I pray, for your darker rewards…..



In my last post i spoke of giving up writing, but i find it hard to part ways from it. For the sole reason that you seem so close with the pen in my hand. "Words" it were, that brought us together, i guess, words it would be that would hold us forever...

Always,

Your Silhouette...

a life chosen, a lifetime gone....
that life ended, my lifelines' gone....
a crossroad, i met you,
today, a dead end, u left me....

where do i go from here,
what is left to live??
without you my love,
all my blinds are drawn...

come back to me baby,
or take me with you...
walking into the emptiness,
where no ray of light crawls...




P.s.- i shouldnt be using this "p.s." it belongs to someone else, that someone who changed me, made me....and now finally, broke me....

you brought me here, now without you, i feel lonely...friends, this is my last post here, i wouldnt be writing anymore,coz the person who was the reason i wrote and the one for whom all my posts were dedicated, has left on a long journey away from all....

i would still read all your lovely posts friends and surely would comment on them...

pls do say a prayer for her...

Regards,
Her Silhouette...

Every song,
tells a story,
Why do,
a part of me,
all of them carry...

Carrying the guilt,
Of my cowardice...
Getting heavier
By the burden
Of your promises...

Life in this misery,
Feeding on your memories...
Embraced by death,
Living in your memories...



i know am dwelling in the past...and all of my recent posts have been somehow or the other related to those memories...but, its something am gonna carry for a long time i guess, i just cant let go...at least till am in this city...

Looking through
the veil
into the emptiness..
Losing my being,
floating around
your memories…

Living each day
in my illusion,
of you walking
by my side…

The night seeps
through, like venom
in my veins, and
I long for distance,
from what’s sane…



Here i have tried to put in the state of mind i have been going through for the past many a weeks....My mind is just confused, actually its me who is confused..like always, wanted to take it out...wanted to express it what was haunting me...